I'm still thinking about the rant. I've accumulated about 50 bookmarks along with some pretty acerbic remarks on most, but I haven't assembled them into a post and after looking at them again yesterday I doubt that I should post them. They're harsh and rude, though they at least have the virtue of being honest. However, there's a part of me that says "Don't be that guy. Don't be just another asshole."
What I really want to do is withdraw as best I can. Get a house and a little piece of land somewhere rural where the winters aren't so harsh. Get a job that pays the bills, but isn't a "career" to get all stressed out about. Insulate myself as best as I can from the fuckups running the country and the assholes who voted for them by growing much of my own food and going off-grid as much as possible.
But then my ties here run so deep. My brother and sister and I look after our parents to some extent or another. My sister more so with Mom as she needs more help than Dad, but if I didn't cook meals for him his diet would have a high percentage of frozen dinners. I suppose thinking of leaving is a bit of an escape fantasy, though I am not without means and skills to make it happen. It's not all that much of a fantasy.
On the other hand, sometimes the world needs assholes because sometimes they are the only ones who get things done. I've played that role too.
P.S. Another option I've thought about is an anonymous second blog where I just let loose, loudly and harshly while maintaining this one as it is. It would have to be anonymous because it would eventually piss somebody off enough to want to track me down. That's more work than just creating a new blog with a clever disguise. There are lots of tricks that can be used to track down somebody on the internet and one slip and you're done. I'm pretty sure I don't want to spend the time on that or take the risk in the first place.
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