Met with the CEO today in what I had been told was going to be a meeting to discuss where we are heading as a company and IT in particular. He's pretty much savaged IT in general the past couple months, though he left my group and me alone. What was supposed to be a discussion turned out to be a one way list of marching orders, pretty much crushing the last of the vision that had kept me hanging on the last two years.
He let me know in no uncertain terms that he's a man of action, and reason will never stand in the way of, or delay any of his decisions. One by one he's picked off the visionaries in the company until there are only a few scattered ones left, accept for him of course. Heh. We've reached a point where I have to admit the center cannot hold.
He might as well be a Conductor, calling last stop. I've been in this spot a couple times before. I was younger then of course, and more junior. If there wasn't another train to catch at that station....well I'd just hoof it 'til I came across some other track. I'd thought it would be easier as I got older but it's not.
I think Monday will be the day I make it last stop for this particular job. I gave the four guys who report to me a heads up that things were getting hinky a month ago. Today I told them to do what they need to do to take care of themselves. They're top-notch, I think they'll be ok.
There's a part of me that is worried that there won't be another train to catch Monday.
On the other hand, it might be good to walk for a while.
Update: In my self-absorbed, feel sorry for my self mood last night, I forgot one of the best parts. The CEO gave a power point presentation to the entire IT staff yesterday. The very first bullet point of the very first page, I kid you not:
"Establish an IT Team that is accountable, responsible and cost consciences."
Ha! Cost consciences indeed!